are we born good or evil?

Things sometimes change with time and sometimes they don't. Part of the reason I left my initial blog was related to people...

People are still relatively all selfish a**holes. Quote me.. it appears a fact.

"and in the universe even that which is called evil, when it is regulated and put in its own place, only enhances our admiration of the good; for we enjoy and value the good more when we compare it with the evil" - augustine

gambling

I've never really been a big gambler... I've always thought its a waste of money and that my conservative butt should just get out and work hard for my money and then spend it wisely in order to achieve financial freedom or success.

Gambling is risky...you can lose your shirt...And all those movies about the people who win big with gambling and the lottery end up with all these crazy problems later in life that I've never wanted it.... And I don't look like they do ever so there must be a "type" of lotto winner in order to win.

BUT... You can win really big. And it would feel great for just a little while and how else could I feel that kind of financial satisifaction. Don't get me wrong, the job pays the bills, but what if???? What if???? So I really started thinking about the risk and winning big.

So... I go to the local store where you can buy them and of course, it would happen to me, The machine is BROKEN!!

The fleeting opportunity came and left in a blink of an eye. It took me days, weeks, months oh all right - years to get up the courage to buy a ticket and the odds of it being broken at that EXACT moment are like what 1 and 50 gazillion?

I've always believed things happen for a reason so I have no reason to doubt that I would have won the lotto, become a drug addict, wrecked my car, been in and out of rehab, cursed my family and shot my dog, spent all my money because it would have been a big burden, so it's all better for me not to win anyhow.

Pay it forward....

Huge concept. If only everyone would believe and act on this theory. But then, we would all be the same and life wouldn't be as complicated to get through. There is something about the low valleys we go through in life that make the mountains fantastic.

I still like the concept. Maybe I will try it on someday.

Do you ever wonder if dreams are some significant part of our lives that we all overlook? I have always wondered about dreams. Are they really our biggest fears or biggest wish at a certain time in our life?

Are they subconscious thoughts that we have and somehow dreaming them makes them partial reality?

What about the weird dreams that are so bizarre that you really have no explanation at all? I always say, I must have been running a fever or had something really great to eat for dinner when I have those.

But still I wonder....