50 things about me

I love my kids
I like strawberry icecream.
I enjoy running to music with my ipod.
My favorite movies are drama and love comedy.
I wish I could secretly be a bartender
Ive been to Paris across the ocean but never Paris across the state
I am still looking for Mr. Right and can't seem to get out of Mr. Wrong's path
I found my best friend after high school
It took me seven years to graduate from college
I am faking it until I can make it sometimes in difficult situations at work


My favorite color is blue
My eyes are green, yellow and hazel mix depending upon my makeup and shirt color
I will meet Derek Jeter one day
I have a mini OCD problem that I try to keep under control :-)
I'm only an average swimmer but like to think I am above average
I miss my mother
I miss my father
I am more republican than I am democrat
All my friends are more democrat than republican
I believe in intense attraction at first sight


I have made mistakes in my life
I have moments I wish I could change
I have moments I cherish and wish could happen again
I grew up to the sounds of bugs chirping at night and when I hear them it reminds me of home
I do not like to camp because I am afraid of animals attacking
I am very afraid of spiders and most recently dead frogs floating in a pool filter
The people I look up to, are the people who react in a way I wish I had the strength too
I like to read - I read about 5 books per month
I miss Miley and Rowser, two of the best pet dogs EVER!
My sister is my twin with red hair


I thought I could have been a hairdresser as a backup plan
I do not let strangers in very quickly
I am friendly and outgoing but to really know me is to be with me in comfortable silence
I like red wine... a lot
I do agree networking in both personal and professional lives is key to new doors
I like taking trips to the caribbean beaches... love the teal green water
I love it when a guy is spontaneous
I do and dont like surprises... if its something enjoy I like surprises, if not - I dont like them
I like to cuddle and I love to have my back rubbed
I've learned that love is not made and cannot grow without respect


My past is there to help guide my future
My favorite season is autumn
Celebrity look alike is helen hunt
I was in drama for years in school - but prefer to be behind a video camera
I strive for perfection in most all areas of my life
I give for so many others and usually put myself last
I want to retire away from chaos and live in a peaceful out of the way small town
I am a Virgo
I love pasta...its a food weakness
I've read the whole bible and I believe in everything it says

I had a great time this weekend with two really great people. My sister and my best friend. I am so thankful for people in your life who can make you smile and forget all the craziness of the world.

For one weekend, I resorted to my old way of life - being me and really enjoying each moment.

Some things in life stay the same...

I've been missing my self, my blog and my ability to write whats on my mind in a hidden capacity. So after trying version of old passwords, I came across you...

Girl's are pretty is still on-line. Some things in life make you smile because they are and always will be consistently there and overlooked.


Dear Blogger:

I'm sorry I left you behind. I forgot how much you mean to me. Can you forgive me and accept me back into your open kingdom? You were my life and my daily adventure and I have forgotten about that.

I am human and will fail miserably at trying to be the best athis, but I if I put you on a priority list, I will find a part of myself that once enjoyed life and believed in HOPE and the power that it provides. Therefore, the old saying is true - if you let something go and it comes back to you, it was yours all along.

Sincerely,
Munch

The holidays are over. I made it through it.... I realize my posts are so depressing based on my state of mind in the last year. I miss my laughter as much as my family does.

depressing

I feel as if Edward Cullen has broke up with me after reading the Twilight series.... Its so depressing that its over.

God, where are you? I know you are there, I hear you knocking and quietly easing my burden and heartache… I do not see you. I am fragile and sensitive. However, you know this. You know I need you to move into the driver seat and take over.

Motions are present and actions are small but alive. It is a quiet pulse in the background that gently reminds me of your strength. The strength that appears just in time to dry the tears and encourage my belief into one more step.

Does it make a difference? In the end, will it matter? What do I have that I can give you today except for what is so precious it hurts me to truly turn it over to you? I am afraid of the answers when I search deep.

Confusion…Anxiety…separation, they are sad and harsh.

As the clouds disappear in the distance, I realize that I am chasing the sunset. The beautiful horizon minimizes into streaks of gold and bright orange. The contrast is surreal and unimaginable.

It is then that I am reminded of you and how you are gone from me. You left before you and I shared this new sunset…a world I find myself in today. Life has to be more than just chasing sunsets and experiences. We run around in blind corners of the world in a game we will never control or have power over.

What is it we want, what is it we strive for, why do we push ourselves to the extreme for stuff, power, money, and a fake happiness? We get to a comfort level in this dollhouse world we call reality. We then take a quick peak outside of our body and wake up to ourselves chasing the sunset.

May I ask, for what? It doest matter. In the end, our timeline is established and set. We have a limited number of sunsets that we will see, a limited number of falling stars, a limited number of new beginnings and endings.

Its wrong…everything about it is wrong. You should be here, you should be with me, I need your advice, I need your thoughts and I need you to make me laugh…. I need a hug to tell me it is okay.

Nevertheless, here I sit, looking out my window all the while knowing I am chasing the sunset.